Finally Revealing My Secret | NikkieTutorials: Layers Of Me


After being blackmailed, Nikkie takes control as she prepares for her powerful coming out video, but behind the scenes she is battling with telling her closest friend the truth.
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  • Claire Bee
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    Nikkie, you will always be Nikkie! A beautiful woman that does incredible make up 🥰

  • Claire Bee
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    Big props to mom 💕 She let her daughter be herself. She's wonderful!

  • Tran Tran
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    Linda is such a wonderful friend!

  • Jae Lempriere
    Jae Lempriere7 timer siden

    OMG NikkieTutorials I have been watching you since I first found youtube and makeup tutorials and you inspired me and made really explore and find my love for makeup. You are a amazing person! your so strong and this coming out story is so sad but also you didn't have to be scared for one second because everyone that truly mattered and truly understood was was gonna continue to love and adore you for you and your work!. THANK YOU FOR BEING SO BRAVE AND THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU! MWAH XXXXX Also I've watched every single one of your videos and ive now got my own youtube channel which im gonna to juts have fun and explore and create. lots of love LGBTQ+ COMMUNITY LOVE

  • Andrea Salazar
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    I am pretty sure most of us including myself, keep seeing you as Nikkie, a strong independent woman, You are amazing and so strong we are very proud of you

  • KoreAn A
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    Thank you thank you thank u.....for sharing EVERYTHING..u inspire me more and more

  • D'Arcy Jane
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    so so many tears....

  • Jessica Tavares
    Jessica Tavares23 timer siden

    we love u 🤍🤍🤍🤍🌷

  • Druvis Gerrits
    Druvis GerritsDag siden

    You are a beautiful person inside and out. ❤ This world could use somr more of the unwavering love and support that your mom and best friend have for you. It's amazing. You are amazing.

  • DD O
    DD ODag siden

    Nikkie was a born a woman. She was just trapped in the wrong body, now she is the most beautiful woman and queen ever!💕🤍🖤

  • agvi13
    agvi13Dag siden

    proud of you

  • Lalena Conklin
    Lalena ConklinDag siden

    That was probably the hardest decision to keep to yourself... I already thought you were wonderful but now knowing the whole story I think you're even more wonderful! Just be you 100% and never look back your past your past you're nothing but your future and it's okay to just look forward and it's okay to just be who you are no matter what it is... There's nothing wrong with any of us the only thing that we need to stop doing is judging one another we don't know each other stories we all Harbor secrets about ourselves! It's okay to just be ourselves you're a beautiful woman and you're Perfect Just the Way You Are and if you don't feel perfect just the way you are then change and become the perfect you and don't worry what the world thinks I know that sounds hard especially in this world at this day and age but that's what needs to change we have to stop worrying and living in fear about what the people around us are thinking! I say everybody just start being truthful with ourselves first and through that the truth will come... Much love to all and much love to you Nikki keep up the great work I'm sure you'll never see this but I hope you do!

  • Tanya K.Beckerman
    Tanya K.BeckermanDag siden

    😭😭😭😭😭 it is so exciting!! You are amazing person ❤

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  • Brianna Bodin
    Brianna Bodin2 dager siden

    Brave beautiful woman. 💜💜💜

  • Maddie Smith
    Maddie Smith2 dager siden

    That was one of the most powerful things I have ever seen. I love you so much Nikki. You will FOREVER have my support and most importantly, love.

  • Mayra Macias
    Mayra Macias2 dager siden

    Can we talk about the remarkable not only mother, but woman Mama Tutorials is 🥰 Everyone needs a mom so loving, accepting and understanding 😍🥰

  • Bae Goals
    Bae Goals2 dager siden

    The weird thing is..I still only see the woman Nikki. I’m trying my hardest to see someone else but I cannot because she’s truly walking in her actual truth.❤️

  • Zara Castellaz-Faico
    Zara Castellaz-Faico2 dager siden

    So inspiring I love you even more, you’re amazing

  • Brena Bolick
    Brena Bolick2 dager siden

    bro when she came out i was so so so excited. this is beautiful and i adore that she’s willing to let us all in on her story

  • Stacy Trueshot
    Stacy Trueshot2 dager siden

    I didn't know and now that I do it changed nothing. I love Nikki. I think she is wonderful.

  • Seven Vasquez
    Seven Vasquez2 dager siden

    MiNd BlOwn 💥💣

  • Liz Kunst
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  • FranCat Creations
    FranCat Creations2 dager siden

    Nikki! 😢😍 this series was amazing and you are amazing 💜

  • Lady Grace
    Lady Grace2 dager siden

    I appreciate you 🥰

  • Niknak
    Niknak2 dager siden

    I want more. Nikkie is so real, brave and full of life. She is gorgeous. There was no big lie, it was just the past.

  • Angelina Federle
    Angelina Federle2 dager siden

    I love that track that is playing in your whip girl ;)

  • XxnothingxX
    XxnothingxX3 dager siden

    I love nikkie for how she is not bc of her gender i love her bc she is so tallented she is so entertaining and funny and she is perfect as a boy and as a girl we luv you nikkie 💗💗

    MARZWERA063 dager siden

    Her voice now reminds me so much of Kathrine Heigls!

  • Jenny Di
    Jenny Di3 dager siden

    what an amazon mother, you are so bless this is amazing i will always will love my kids no matter what they want to be in life and i can understand your mother that love wow ❤️

  • Jessica James
    Jessica James3 dager siden

    This is soooooo inspirational. have and always will be an empowered, beautiful women! Your past makes no difference. You are YOU. and thats.....amazing we love you girl

  • Galaxy Light
    Galaxy Light3 dager siden

    Your layers helped me define my layers Thank you

  • Iris Dorhout
    Iris Dorhout3 dager siden

    Omg your mom is so supportive 🏳️‍🌈💞

  • Luka Runningwolf
    Luka Runningwolf3 dager siden

    I hate whoever blackmailed her. This was none of our goddamned business. She should have been allowed to live her life as she was. She should have been allowed to have that peace.

  • Nandipa Ndlovu
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  • Stephanie Murphey
    Stephanie Murphey4 dager siden

    She is soooo gorgeous ! Keep going girl love you!

  • Camila Dellasanta
    Camila Dellasanta4 dager siden

    You're BEATIFUL girl, be you. Dont be afraid ❤

  • Pirkko Davis
    Pirkko Davis4 dager siden

    Mad props to Nikkie’s mom. Saskia Spee allowed and encouraged Nikkie to become who she wanted to be. ❤️

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  • Kristen Aubin
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  • Sheara 46
    Sheara 465 dager siden

    Kudo's to you for being strong, beautiful and living your best inspire so many people so shake off the haters because you' are a star!!

  • Chelsea Bree Ann
    Chelsea Bree Ann5 dager siden

    NIKKIE!!! I would have never guessed but your story is unique and has molded you into who you are. Be proud of it. You are so amazing and such an inspiration. This is seriously incredible. Love you so much. 💓💓 It’s amazing to see you at your highest feeling great and on your way to even more amazing things. 💓💓

  • tara pettigrew
    tara pettigrew5 dager siden

    I went and watched a lot of your videos from when you were younger!! Such a beautiful beautiful soul......I have not gone through the things you have in your life BUT you have still INSPIRED are truly beautiful inside and out..... Thank you Nikki thank you!!!! And KEEP SHINING

  • Yaiza Sanchez
    Yaiza Sanchez5 dager siden

    i love you :') this was so beautiful.

  • Zosia Aniela
    Zosia Aniela6 dager siden

    You're an extremely beautiful person inside and out. Thank you for being you.

  • Jill Kolb
    Jill Kolb6 dager siden

    Loved this documentary series 💕🎉 Love you Nikkie 💛🧡❤💜💙💚

  • CinnamonBasic
    CinnamonBasic6 dager siden

    Aww Nikkie. It never felt like a lie! I felt like your mom when I saw your coming out video. Like "she's every inch a woman!" I just see you as a woman, and was just surprised that your journey to become her was slightly different than I assumed before. 💞

  • CinnamonBasic
    CinnamonBasic6 dager siden

    We have Nikkies mom to thank for allowing her to be herself and follow her passions 🧡

  • DemiGreek Kateouras
    DemiGreek Kateouras6 dager siden

    i mean how are you that thick in that head to not be able to look at a person and not be able to tell this was dude? like come on. even I knew at first glance, and then didn't say anything because I didn't want to insult a possible female, but this isn't a female. that is a male!

  • Rachel Hey
    Rachel Hey6 dager siden

    Just curious if she is still allowed in the Middle East?

  • Kyra Lawson
    Kyra Lawson6 dager siden

    Nikki you are a beautiful talented successful women, I’m so proud of you!

  • Elaina Bannister
    Elaina Bannister6 dager siden

    For all the people who are saying:”no one asked” or “it’s not a lie” or “ it’s not our business you just don’t have to bring it up” it’s not about that it’s about letting everyone know who you used to be to get it off of YOUR chest to make YOU feel better.😌

  • Lindzy Earp
    Lindzy Earp6 dager siden

    the similarity between Swedish and German is scary lol I was like wait I understand a lot of this

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  • Veronica Valdez
    Veronica Valdez7 dager siden

    Your and amazing soul 💕🙏🏼 keep doing YOU I’ve loved you for YOU since day one! Your so talented and gorgeous human being.

  • Zandra Ignatov
    Zandra Ignatov7 dager siden

    Honestly I wish it was always like this. Its no ones business. Be yourself and call it a day. You don’t need to “come out” or admit anything to anyone. You are you and that’s it

  • Milleny Rodriguez
    Milleny Rodriguez7 dager siden

    She did show us that if people love you they will accept you no matter what and no one can take it from you.

  • Imelda Ronces
    Imelda Ronces7 dager siden

    Do you sometimes feel like you don't want to "Help" ppl with their journey? Because you don't feel like like you had that life before? Do you feel like you were never born a in the wrong body?

  • clo
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    we stan her mum

  • Sophie W.
    Sophie W.7 dager siden

    She is so inspiring.

  • valeria lopez
    valeria lopez7 dager siden

    you are beautiful and keep positive body positively

  • Jacqi Lane-Leonard
    Jacqi Lane-Leonard7 dager siden

    Finally watched these and wow... Watching you growing in your journey. Seeing the splicing of you doing these videos over the years. You are an inspiration and you use your spark to show others how to find theirs. 💜

  • Derek Lamontagne
    Derek Lamontagne7 dager siden

    girl if u can eat and have a bed/ shelter grow the f-up... previelages comes hard for most., more than others struggling after 5-15 yrs+homeless on same situation... due lucky...

  • Meri Musheghyan
    Meri Musheghyan7 dager siden

    It's really true what Lynda says. The first thing I felt when I saw your coming out video was the pain. Love your story Nikkie! All the fame and the wealth didn't change you one bit! You just grew into being you! Goed gedaan meid ☺️😘❤️

  • Heaven Lee Szczepaniak
    Heaven Lee Szczepaniak7 dager siden

    I have not cried this much since my mom passed in 2010!!!! The video of your brothers passing and your coming out video which I remebr both and watching you showing us the behind the scenes,!!!! Nikki your amazing and so strong and if I can speak for everyone here we love you regardless and sooooo proud of you and all you have become and grown from and gone through! Keep being you !! Xoxoxoxooxoxxoxox

  • Ms Nzbody
    Ms Nzbody7 dager siden

    Its so much Bull, when people think that you owe them an explanation of your past.

  • Cazzle Evo
    Cazzle Evo7 dager siden

    I've only ever known you as a woman are beautiful x

  • Sümbül Ağa
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    I don't see it as a lie. It's more like you don't have to talk about your identity.

  • Sümbül Ağa
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    Im Germany and I kinda understand everything lol.

  • Okami Wolfee
    Okami Wolfee7 dager siden

    No one has to announce their gender. It's none of anyone's business - but I'm proud of those that do it bc it must be hard. Nikkie - I've watched you for 7 years and never once questioned your gender, to me you were always a woman. I didn't see or have any inkling of anything different. You didn't lie because a woman is what you are. No one should be expected to announce or explain their gender.

  • x
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    I completely forgot she’s transsexual even after watching her coming out video. Only because I see her as a woman, as Nikkie.

  • Elizabeth Haderman
    Elizabeth Haderman7 dager siden

    Cool cool.. But like i didnt know you where this way. Like YOU SPEAK DUTCH?!?!? WOOOW

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  • Britt Day
    Britt Day7 dager siden

    You are so AMAZING!

  • Nancy Merchant
    Nancy Merchant8 dager siden

    I just can't stop watching this I love her so much I can't wait to go to the Netherlands I hope to run into you and mama tutorials she is the best

  • MsDidas10
    MsDidas108 dager siden

    I tip my 🎓 to you♥️ you are very strong and beautiful person. I love watching your NOlocal videos 🤗 and I send you love, light , kindness, respectfulness and peace ☮️🕊️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ keep up with the video's 😊 from Denver colorado ♥️🌸

  • Kaleigh Bowers
    Kaleigh Bowers8 dager siden

    I am so proud of you ❤

  • Little Miss Budget
    Little Miss Budget8 dager siden

    Nikki you are beautiful sod the haters you are incredible 💞

  • KylieKayFinch
    KylieKayFinch8 dager siden

    How Nikkie feels about rabbits is how I feel about cats. 😂 definitely felt that 🤣

  • Xixi Splash
    Xixi Splash8 dager siden

    This video should have stayed in the drafts.

  • JustJaydon
    JustJaydon8 dager siden

    I'm not crying you are 😭

  • BeautyVlogs
    BeautyVlogs8 dager siden

    Is this the last part ?????

  • Sammy Notten
    Sammy Notten8 dager siden

    Ikk ben ook nederlands

  • Becca_MS-fighter!
    Becca_MS-fighter!9 dager siden

    Wow. This was interesting. I'm wondering why we never seen any baby/toddler/tiny bopper, before her's part of her story. It always intrigues me to see the befores and afters. She is absolutely stunning and would have never guessed she was anything other. Wow. This made me tear up.

  • Dustin Yoder
    Dustin Yoder9 dager siden

    Much love to you Nikkie

  • fanny boni
    fanny boni9 dager siden

    No but wait, is it the last épisode !? Tell me no please

  • Samii Paterson
    Samii Paterson9 dager siden

    Your mom, she is wonderful. You and your Mom are incredible. You don't owe anyone anything of your past, it's your privacy background. You choose what you want and always look after yourself, family and friends. Your story is beautiful and inspiring. You are beautiful, strong and bubbly awesome Lady. No one should be judging you, or looking at you in a weird way.. Keep up the positive stuff, you are doing Great definitely!

  • vicby puppycouch
    vicby puppycouch9 dager siden

    Omg Nikki you are such a beautiful woman. how are you so pretty omg 👁👄👁

  • Mandy
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    I am really happy and proud of her. It really stinks she was blackmailed into coming out though. It should have been on her terms.

  • vicby puppycouch

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    Ikr 😤

  • Betty Debrito
    Betty Debrito9 dager siden

    I wil always respect you for who you are for me your nikkie my makeup idol ily i love you.

  • Ocha Mocha
    Ocha Mocha9 dager siden

    your mom gives mE MOMMY ISSSUUUEESS LMAO

  • Niki Fix
    Niki Fix9 dager siden

    Nikkie you’re a gorgeous soul! I think you’re beautiful no matter what and just know that whatever you chose will never effect how we all love you! you have so many people who love you, you are lucky! xoxoxox ❤️

  • Maureen Tseng
    Maureen Tseng10 dager siden

    Best series on NOlocal.

  • Mrs Cheech
    Mrs Cheech10 dager siden

    Nikkie, when I found out, I was like “oh..okay” and that was it, not once have I ever looked at you different after that. You’re a strong beautiful, talented, successful woman!!! ❤️

  • Banele zulu
    Banele zulu10 dager siden

    id never guess how tall madam is. she comes across so dainty and posed. my mother inlaws sister is a tall sottish lady and she too carries herself so dainty until she has to bow at doorways and u like.... wow

  • Blu Delphinium
    Blu Delphinium10 dager siden

    What does my gender have to do makeup 👏👏👏👏👏

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  • Sharon Haigh
    Sharon Haigh10 dager siden

    I knew when you were doing your moms make up. It’s nobody’s business but your own. You are you and you have a beautiful soul. Don’t change for any one. You should be proud of yourself

  • Summer Bell
    Summer Bell10 dager siden

    I adore her mom! 💗

  • Nina
    Nina10 dager siden

    Nikkie, je mag zo ontzettend trots zijn op jezelf!❤ je bent zo'n onwijs sterke en mooie vrouw❤🥰

  • molly white
    molly white10 dager siden

    You’re just incredible ❤️❤️❤️❤️